Hopeful or ....?

I was looking for another side of my earrings in our semi dark room after the Fajr prayers yesterday morning, before leaving for the gym. It suddenly occurred to me that, I must be a very hopeful person. In my earring container, I see a lot of one sided earrings with the other side missing. Missing, because I misplaced them, missing because I must have dropped one of them somewhere. And here I am still hopeful that one day the other side may just resurface one day; one day when I least expected; when I’m not even looking for it.

I’m still hopeful that one day, my boy Imran will one day realize that I want him to try harder and be the best that he can be because he can.

I’m still hopeful that my Mak’s osteoarthritis will, by some miracle, heal itself so that she can enjoy the remaining of her life in less pain.

I’m still hopeful that Mak will tell us, complain to us that she does feel pain..and not try to conceal her pain from us..cause she’s doesn’t want to worry us.

I’m still hopeful that my big sister will realize that sometimes she just needs to take care of herself first even before her loved ones, because we need her to be around forever and ever.

I’m still hopeful that no matter how tiring things are at work, there will be more times that they are actually enjoyable and rewarding…why else would I still be here after 8 years.

I’m still hopeful that Aisyah will realize that collecting junk in her room is making her sinus worst. And she will never make money from “Future Antiques”

I’m still hopeful that I’m not so fickle in making decisions; maybe it’s sometimes nice to have other people make the decisions

I’m still hopeful that Aisyah will realize that no matter how much she lurve Johnny Depp, it will remain an infatuation

I’m still hopeful that I can cope and understand the eccentricities, the difference in thoughts of the people around me, so that we can be together in harmony.


Now, am I hopeful? Hopeless? Ungrateful? Or simply stupid?

If I were to ask Lyn…and I can’t because she’s on MC for a week, she would probably say, “Doa je lah” dengan nada and tonasi hadek-hadek…(Just pray)

p.s Aisyah just read this and says “ everything is possible, Ma. Miracles do happen..kalau Aisyah kaya nanti, Aisyah boleh pergi rumah dia (JD)…oh..such naivety..huhuhu