Feeling old, not
November and December is somewhat months of reunion. After all the school reunion that I went to, plus the trip back to JB to see Mak, my brother came back from Abu Dhabi to visit his sons, Aliff who will be starting Uni (habis lah tergeliat lidah budak tu nak kena cakap melayu..) in Malaysia and Owish, who just finished his SPM in a boarding school in Melaka (habislah budak tu kena balik to the desert soon). My other brother and his family came up from JB for the school hols and slept over at our place together with 4 of his 5 girls (kesian budak2 tu tidor sempit2 dalam bilik Aisyah).
All these reunions, made me realised (ek eleh baru nak sedar ke?) that time has really passed so swiftly. My nephews and nieces are almost grown ups. I can still recall holding them in my arms when they were just babies and now most of them are taller than me. And where does that leave me? Should I be feeling old? Is that a negative thing to feel? I am enjoying too much of what life has to offer that the feeling of getting older is hardly felt...well of course the constant body ache, sleepless nites caused by depleting hormones and the soon need for bifocals are something that I cannot avoid. Somehow having to keep up with my teenage kids is also 'forcing' me to stay 'young', after all I need to be in touch with their surroundings to help me understand them.
I feel blessed, to have 2 sets of children at different age group; 1)the teenagers and 2) the 10s and below. I get to enjoy the best and worst of both group. They drive me up the wall sometimes but most times, they make me feel complete...Alhamdulillah....
All these reunions, made me realised (ek eleh baru nak sedar ke?) that time has really passed so swiftly. My nephews and nieces are almost grown ups. I can still recall holding them in my arms when they were just babies and now most of them are taller than me. And where does that leave me? Should I be feeling old? Is that a negative thing to feel? I am enjoying too much of what life has to offer that the feeling of getting older is hardly felt...well of course the constant body ache, sleepless nites caused by depleting hormones and the soon need for bifocals are something that I cannot avoid. Somehow having to keep up with my teenage kids is also 'forcing' me to stay 'young', after all I need to be in touch with their surroundings to help me understand them.
I feel blessed, to have 2 sets of children at different age group; 1)the teenagers and 2) the 10s and below. I get to enjoy the best and worst of both group. They drive me up the wall sometimes but most times, they make me feel complete...Alhamdulillah....
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